Pale Fire

1. Finished my essay on terrorism in Afghanistan over the weekend. On a hindsight I think I can actually squeeze a little bit more elaboration but I'm not going to because I don't think I should second-guess myself
2. Studied French on Sunday and my test today was ... Manageable. I didn't get to finish it and when my tutor said a very threatening "C'est fin" above me, it went into a panic and I think I made a few very stupid mistakes but it's over! Now we're left with just the Oral to combat for this module! I'm in a dilemma whether I should take Level 2 next semester ... I think I'd miss Bernadette and her classes if I decide not to continue with French. Elle est bonne professeur!
3. Calvin and Hobbes <3333333
4. Bryan S. Turner
5. NTU HSS Library is featuring works of Sarah Waters on display. They have good taste! They also have a really cool version of Tipping the Velvet which I think doesn't sell anymore because they've got another publisher. And it's here! Old and frayed! In my school!
6. My tutor added me on Facebook hahaha it's only interesting because she's interesting and in a good way I guess. She swears plenty on her Facebook page. I also have a haunch that she's bisexual
7. Had a very hilarious conversation with my cousin Sharlane who is working in China right now and is going on a smear campaign to get rid of her colleague. If you think your cousins are crazy, you haven't met mine. It's amazing how she goes to every country in the world for months without a single penny but still manages to survive
8. Marcus gave me a call from Taiwan and I almost didn't pick it up hahaha it looked dubious but thank goodness Jan advised me to answer it. Wah Marcus big boy now; our country sleeps in peace at night because of you

 
• Melissa (Tan) and I may be going to Laos at the end of the year
• If all goes well, hopefully I'd be going to USA for my exchange trip; haven't figured out which one I'd want to sign on (INSTEP's 6 months is way too many) and whether I should man up and go during Year 2 or weasel and go during Year 3 but I'd suffer in terms of workload in Year 3
• For those who owe me $, this week would be a great time to pay me back 'cause I'd be surviving on $10 for 5 days in Hall which means ... a lot of cereal
• I'm starting to really like school = I have no life
• I'm also starting to really like Grey's Anatomy (I used to think there was too much pathos but now I like how unpredictable it can be) but my heart still belongs to Brothers & Sisters. I can't even talk about Prison Break it's too painful how can Michael die
• Jan and I have set a weekly studying-at-the-library-together-day and it is-s-s Thursday evening yay and we will stick to it even if there are Tom & Jerry DVDs beckoning us at the ADM Library catalogue. FOR OUR GPA FIGHTING ~
• Modern Antiquities + the aftermath (prata, Julie & Julia, a lot of driving & MacDonald's) was fan-n-ntastic; thanks to everyone who were there and everyone who couldn't make it but still gave emotional support!
• I just bought a few new additions to my Animorphs collection, c'est bien!
• Jael's 20th was such a solace - I mizz my fwens. Jael you've hit the big 2 hahaha 1) eat more so you'd stop losing weight 2) I hope your hair grows faster since I know that's what you want 3) your GPA soars 4) you get happy soon
• Never thought I'd say this - but no dance practice on Tuesday ):
• I'm cabbing back to school tonight because I have a printer to bring along and maybe 101 KG of groceries
• Exams are 1 month away
• I really, really, really need to continue to stay in Hall next year; please pray for me (& Jan, & Haowen, & Eunice & ...)
• Sometimes I only get really angry because I know I shouldn't even be angry in the first place but it's all cool because I've learnt to put it all into a box (big, recycled paper, non-bleached, non-coloured & with no labels) and store it far away

I try to understand patheticism, really; some people just have nothing going on in their lives, you know? Their lives are a sad, lonely routine in which they have yet to find some sort of meaning within themselves to be truly passionate about, I guess; hence they have a propensity to be awfully critical and immature about others in order to use that as some sort of a platform for self-esteem.

See, this guy knocked on my door with his girl-friend; he asked if he could borrow my card-key to open the toilet so they could paste posters inside. I could have been paranoid and said no, since losing your card-key is a $50 penalty - it's like lending your library card to someone to use it to borrow books and if you're not careful, he / she may choose to be a bastard and you'd find overdue library bills going straight to you and there's nothing you can do about it. I decided to take precautionary measures:

'Oh, sure, but can I leave my number with you and vice versa, just in case? Just to make sure I get it back.'

I went back into my room, did my own business, suddenly had a huge urge to pee, went to the toilet and Stupid Girl-friend was talking in a voice that transmitted down the corridor:

'Why is she so eager to leave her number with you? And why did you ask her if she wants to join cheerleading? She's obviously interested in you, that's why she asked (to leave her number).'

'Really meh ... You don't think so much lah.'

'Really loh! See her eyes so big!'

No. 1: This conversation was carried between both of them, and about half the block, in Chinese, and I have absolutely no discrimination against Chinese-speaking people, really (a lot of my friends are Chinese-speaking and they are lovely fantastic people), but Stupid Girl's voice in Chinese just tended to be a bit extra jarring than usual. Like Ah Lian Chinese VS Cheryl Fox Chinese. Cheryl Fox Chinese = sexy though mispronounced; Ah Lian Chinese = very irritating though very fluid

No. 2: I ended up right behind them somewhere near the end syllable of that conversation. There was a moment of horror (from Stupid Girl; guy apparently thought it was hilarious and burst out laughing) while I was trying my hardest to issue my coldest, most ruthless, Mean Girl 101 face, which was very difficult - you have to understand I was fighting this mad urge to pee

No. 3: I held onto my gaze till Stupid Girl started squirming and looking at the guy (still laughing) helplessly; told the guy to remember to give me a missed call, since I was desperately interested, went ahead to pee

No. 4: Actually, I'd think more of Stupid Girl if she actually bristled and picked a fight with me, you know? Like go 'what, no freedom of speech meh?' or something like that, to which I'm sure I'd have come up with a good comeback and won. It's okay to bitch, really, just be prepared to do it in front of the person you're talking about, it's more suave

No. 5: My eyes are naturally big

Girls who bitch about me tend to range around Stupid Girl's qualities. Now, I don't want to sound elitist because I'm really not in that league, but once you bitch Jacq, it's cool, just don't pretend or cower and I'd respect you for that. I always win though - because right at the beginning, you've already given me your white flag by letting others know how pathetic, lacking and stupid you are as compared to me. It's a simple concept, really - next time when you want to bitch about me, just try not to sound jealous. Like how I'm doing it now, see?